well im still in agowny.... i cant sleep. im not even tired. i dont even want to go to bed. it hurts. i damn well hurts. ive taken all the painkillers im allowed an it still bloody hurts. if i could describe it id say it like a throb in the centre of my back... imagin that blob as an angry thunderstorm with the kinda lighting that stays in the cloud... thats how the pain is.. now imagine that the lightwning also goes an earths to ground, spreading down my legs and through my ankles, cos it does that too. the pain is like baaad cramp in the backs of my legs, but without the muscles being involved.. just the pain.

im sulking yes, but hell i hurt.