happy new year everyone :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SKIPPYBIRD!!!!


so first i guess a special happy new year to sarah :) happy birthday lady, your always there for me, you are my light when my world is dark and my guide when im lost, and i hope i'll always be as good a friend to you as you are to me :)

love you lady!!!! xxxxxxxx


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happy new year everyone else!!! had a great party at lees last night .. damn the person .. (nick i think) who brought the absinthe!! you are evil!! poor lees flat is destroyed!!! cos everyone was drunk and falling over/into/onto/at anthing liquid and tipping/spilling/spraying/bathing/flooding and pooling every thing in lees flat .. everywhere was soggy by the end of the night!!!

so .. my new years resolutions:

1. stop fucking up - or as sarah has politely told me "change that" .. so its changed .. to: learn from mistakes and remember them next time a similar situation happens .. thats a good version ..


2. start believing compliments ... no one has said anything nasty to me for ages so maybe i can actually believe i am a decent human .. so believe me .. its your own faults if i start gaining an ego and look down my nose at you mere mortals from my goddess status.

3. stop pining for things i cant have .. its a hard approach but as the offspring say: "the more you suffer the more it shows you really care .. right yeah" .. so no more of that... mr right can damn well show me he cares im not going to suffer for anyone .. who wants that anyway??? its certainly not something im attracted to.

4. believe in myself .. ive written all of the above without believing a word ..

5. sort out my money .. im good with money, but i gotta start organising my future

6.think about maybe moving out .. ive never believed my life would be my own till im totally independent, i guess i still believe i wont exist in my own right until i got my on space terms and rules .. its a toughy and not gunna be tommorow by any stretch of the imagination but i will do it at somepoint

7. stop believing the fairytale endings ... if im sensible and used my head no one will get hurt.

8. be open honest and stop the fibs .. im a liar .. i dont do it to hurt people .. the opposite in fact i only fib to protect peoples feelings .. but i guess sometimes the brutal truth is in the long run kinda to people you love, ive never really understood that, i also lie about i feel .. again only so people think im ok when im not. so im going to be more wary of that.